سلام الله عليكم
Wanna know something?
I’m afraid of crowds.
There. I’ve said it. Sometimes I think it’s ridiculous, but I can’t help it. The feeling gets crazier whenever I’m alone. That’s why I like to be accompanied by any of my closed ones. They’re my sanctuary. They make me feel protected.
But I had to walk home alone this afternoon, and the pounding headache didn’t help either. It’s unpredictable how things are sometimes. When I’m wearing long johns inside; expecting a cold weather outside, the weather would be fine. But today, when I’m not wearing them after days of fine weather, the air became cold and I was freezing. You can’t really predict the weather, can you. They’re just out of your control. Makes you realize time and time again how small humans really are in front of Allah.
Another one’s leaving me again. I don’t really know what I’m feeling right now.. Just too stunned to actually digest that it had happened. It had actually happened this fast. Yet another matter that is simply out of our hands.. You just have to believe that there’s bound to be something good behind it. There’s always something good behind everything. Allah is the Best Planner after all ;)
She may have left the place, but she hadn’t left our hearts. I pray the best for her. And she knows she would always have a place in my heart.
She told me not to cry. But tears don’t just stop falling when you tell them to stop. It’s for the best. You gotta be strong, girl.
:)
And.. If I really want it, I must work hard for it. And I will, bi iznihi insyaAllah. Pray for me, everyone. Pray for us all :)